User talk:Caldjingle
THE QUEEN OF THE BUTTERFLIES!
I SAW THE HUMANS NETTING THEM...I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD DIE.. IT MADE ME TERRIBLY SAD INSIDE..AND I STARTED TO HEAVE AND CRY...
HOW COULD THEY BE SO MEAN,SO CRUEL TO MY PEOPLE,AND FAMILY...WHY?
I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND THIS ..SO TO THE AIR...WHOOSH!..WITH WINGS ON HIGH!
I TRIED TO RESCUE THEM MYSELF, I FAILED AND SOBBED, AND CRIED.
AS THE ZEPHYR WINDS LIFT ME HIGHER..I'M FLOATING BYE,AND BYE
IT'S ALWAYS BETTER IN THE CLOUDS, THE BREEZE..OH MY! OH MY!
AND LOOK MY LITTLE ONES SOME SURVIVED,THEY ARE WITH ME BY MY SIDE.. WE SAID A PRAYER FOR "THE OTHERS".........THE QUEEN OF THE BUTTERFLIES!
--Caldjingle 18:48, 10 October 2007 (EDT)
(This was a piece which was inspired in a quick spontaneous manner, which captures the passion,emotion, instinct, and feelings of women)
ADOPTEE ISSUES THAT I HAVE OVERCOME
10/09/07 05:47 AM ADOPTEE ISSUES THAT I HAVE OVERCOME
FROM ONE ADOPTEE'S MIND TO YOURS (COMING OUT)(2cnd run) I AM GOING TO PUT MYSELF ON THE LINE AND SET THE EXAMPLE.. BECAUSE I WOULD NEVER ASK NOR EXPECT ANYONE TO OPEN UP NOR BE HONEST, IF I DON'T DO IT. I AM AN ADOPTEE AND IT IS A TOUCHY, AND SENSITIVE AREA BUT IT NEEDS TO BE SHARED AND DISCUSSED.
The goal is that it will help someone else who is also going experiencing this.
PLEASE RESPECT MINE AND ALL OTHER OF OUR FRIENDS RIGHTS, VIEWS AND BELIEFS EVEN IF THEY ARE DIFFERENT THAN YOURS.
THE GOAL IS TO SHARE VIEWS PERSPECTIVES ON ADOPTION WHILE GROWING AND APPRECIATING OTHER ADOPTEE'S VIEWS. PART A - (CONSIST OF THE COMMON SENSE / EMOTIONAL FABRIC) PART B - (CONSIST OF THE LEGAL FABRIC, AND DISCRIMINATORY APPLICATION OF THE LAW.
I am an adoptee and I have been holding in a lot of things that I need to vent. About what you might ask? About this messed-up governmental/Bureaucratic/Political system/THE ADOPTIVE SYSTEM!
I HAVE A VERY GOOD ARGUMENT I NEED TO DISCUSS, I FEEL THAT IT COULD SET A NEW PRECEDENT FOR ADOPTEES IN FLORIDA AND THE UNITED STATES. THIS WILL PROBABLY END UP BEING ONE OF THE BIGGEST CLASS ACTION LAW SUITS IN HISTORY. So many people take things for granted...... let me just give you a little taste of what I and other adoptee goes thru everyday.... I am going to try to articulate this to you..
THIS IS HOW I USED TO FEEL MOST OF THE TIME....
WHEN YOU ARE AN ADOPTEE YOU WAKE UP EVERY MORNING WITH A BIG QUESTION MARK ON YOUR FOREHEAD. THE BIG QUESTION MARK (??) ON YOUR FOREHEAD YELLS AT YOU: " WHO AM I "? "WHERE DID I COME FROM? "
AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW THOSE TWO ANSWERS THEN YOU CONCLUSIVELY DON'T KNOW:
"WHERE AM I GOING" AND "HOW AM I GOING TO GET THERE? WHO WILL HELP ME GET THERE?
(NO FAMILY) >>>
ALL OF THE COLLEGES, AND UNIVERSITIES THAT STUDY HUMANITY, PSYCHOLOGY, AND HISTORY WOULD TELL YOU THAT THESE ARE THE BASIC QUESTIONS THAT MAN HISTORICALLY, PRESENTLY, AND IN THE FUTURE NEEDS TO KNOW TO SURVIVE. THEY ARE BASIC NECESSITIES OF THOUGHT AND CONSCIENCE.
And adoptee confronts and thinks even subconsciously EVERY SECOND, minute, hour, OF EACH AND EVERY DAY, AND ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU LOOK INTO THE MIRROR ABOUT THIS QUESTION ND THESE ISSUES.
ALL YOU SEE IS THE QUESTION MARK???? (YOU DON'T SEE THE PERSON,...BUT YOU ALWAYS SEE THE QUESTION MARK. AS STATED ABOVE FOR 39 YEARS I HAVE DEALT WITH THIS AND ALL OF THE RESULTING ISSUES THAT STEM FROM AND ARISE OUT OF THE ADOPTEE'S DELIMA.
- WHY , AND HOW DOES THIS OCCUR,YOU MAY ASK? ...BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO REFERENCE POINT TO KNOW THE PERSON, EVEN IF IT IS YOURSELF.
IT HAS TAKEN ME MANY YEARS, I FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF, I AM CONFIDENT, MATURE, EXPERIENCED, HOWEVER THAT DAMN QUESTION MARK IS STILL THERE... (NO CLOSURE YET)
WHEN WILL THE STATE OF FLORIDA CHANGE IS ANTIQUATED LAWS AND GIVE US ADOPTEES OR RIGHTFUL ACCESS TO OUR OWN BIRTH CERTIFICATE AND BIRTH RECORD?? STILL FIGHTING..AND OT GIVING UP!!
-- LOOK FOR PART B - (CONSIST OF THE LEGAL FABRIC, AND DISCRIMINATORY APPLICATION OF THE LAW, IN THE NEXT ARTICLE OF THE ADOPTEE ISSUES.
Written/typed by, lived by, felt by Caldjingle and the millions of other adoptees that I speak for I my heart.
